You guessed it! This right here is the little bean growing in my belly!
I had my first Ultra Sound today and it was freaking AMAZING. I couldn't believe that this little person is seriously inside of me! When I heard the heartbeat, I was trying so hard not to cry. The feeling is just UNREAL. The doctor was estimating from my last period was, that I am about 14 weeks pregnant (in my second trimester). But when she looked at the size of my baby, she said that I'm probably not as far along as she had calculated.
Monday I am going in for a formal Ultra Sound, so I'm hoping that they will be able to give me the due date finally! Hopefully the baby is not due in September, there are already too many September babies in my immediate family! I'm really hoping the baby is due on or around Halloween. That way Halloween time would be a double whammy, two of my favorite holidays in one :D
The excitement I felt just yesterday can not even COMPARE to the joy I feel today. Hearing that crazy little heartbeat was probably one of the most amazing moments of my life. I've never been crazy about kids, but I think I'm getting kind of baby crazy now. I am DYING to find out if its a boy or a girl, so I can start snatching up cute stuff I see.
And it doesn't help that everyone at work is pregnant too. Seeing them all getting ready to welcome their little munchkins makes me even more excited and anxious to meet mine!
My situation isn't perfect, and I feel like things haven't improved. But I am doing my best to prepare myself for this life that I will be responsible for. Whether or not I'm alone, I will do everything in my power to ensure a safe, happy life for this baby. I'm going to be looking for a second job so I can save up a little more money and hopefully get my own place by the time the baby is here. I'm crossing my fingers and trying to stay positive. It's not going to be easy, but I will manage.
Time to go eat left over pad thai and tom yum soup!
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