Big News!

I don't know why I constantly feel the need to reinvent myself. The main reason why I deleted my other blog was because I felt like there was a lot of negativity and hurt documented there that I need to let go. Hopefully that helps.

Well, here's some big news: I'm going to be a MOM. I'm really excited/scared. I have my first doctor's appointment this Thursday, and time can not go any slower! I found out kind of late that I was pregnant (I'm estimating like around the end of my second month).

I know. HOW DID I NOT KNOW??!

Well, 1) it was totally unplanned. I am going to be completely honest, I never wanted to have kids. EVER. My reasoning wasn't entirely sensible, but nevertheless, I did not want to be a parent. Now, don't get me wrong. Since all of this has happened, I can't wait to be a mother. I am truly and genuinely excited for this baby.

2) I don't regularly get my period. It may be a bit of a TMI, but the first month that I skipped, I wasn't concerned. I've skipped several times before, so it wasn't exactly a red flag to me. However as the second month went by, and still no appearance from my monthly reminder of womanhood, I became increasingly worried.

So I took a test and discovered that I am in fact, pregnant. I was so scared because I did not know how to tell my parents. The first person I told was my youngest brother, and I'm so glad he was the first person I told. I was crying and he said "Well, it's not the end of the world," and then "I think you'll be a good mom." He encouraged me to tell my mom as soon as possible.

So the next morning I told her and her response was "Well, you're going to have to move back home." She didn't seem surprised, but was incredibly supportive. I was so thankful that she took the news as well as she did. My family is Christian, and I was sure they were going to disown me, as I am unmarried. But the rest of my family reacted in a similar way. My dad was so happy when I told him. So all of the love and support of everyone really lifted my spirits and allowed me to stop worrying and finally be excited!!!

So here I am today. I think I'm around 3 months pregnant, possibly even going into my 4th month. I want it to be Thursday already so I can know for sure!! I just want everything to be okay with the little boy or girl inside of me. This blog will be somewhere for me to document/celebrate the the new life for me and the new life of my little one.

'Til next time!